Pray about! Claim it! Believe it! Receive it! It’s yours! Manifest it!
We are taught to speak these things (especially if you are a Christian) and that thing that we are praying and believing for will be ours. Speak things into existence, is what we’re told when waiting on something to happen. You must think positive thoughts. You can’t let negative thinking or people invade your space. I know you’ve heard this. I know you’ve practiced these theories. I have and still do. To be clear, I am a believer in God and I do know that what God has for me is for me. But what about when God says “No.” And I’m not talking about God telling you to wait or be patient. I’m talking about when God simply says...”NO!”
Recently, there has been something that I have been trying to achieve but just can’t seem to do it. I have prayed, practiced, and prepared. I’ve focused and concentrated on this want. I’ve meditated on it. You name it; I’ve done it. But every time I get within arm’s reach of it, it seems to get snatched away. And I try to handle the disappointment with class and grace. I try to remain positive. I try to keep praying about it and assume it’s just not my time. But what if, just what if, it’s not meant for me at all? Not only is that a hard pill to swallow but it’s one that will almost choke you! How do you handle that? How do you handle not only the rejection and disappointment but how do you handle being told that your feelings and thoughts are invalid and basically to suck it up? And finally, how do you handle God’s NO?
If you are waiting for me to give you the answer, don’t hold your breath. Cause chile, I’m still waiting for someone to tell me! But what I do know, personally, is that I have to allow myself time to feel and express my thoughts and emotions. Time to feel and express them...NOT WALLOW in them. I’ve learned that I have to refrain from sharing my disappointments and let downs with everyone. I’ve learned that the people that you thought were on your side (concerning the want) because they were quick with advice and tips, were the same ones that drag your name in the mud behind closed doors. God’s “No” is showing me a lot about myself but even more about the people around me. His “No” is teaching me to instead of searching for validation, search for the lesson that is to be learned.
And of course, a yes from God will supersede any no from man. But a no from God can be life saving. A no from God can be soul saving. I’ve taken a lot of L’s concerning this particular matter in the past couple of years. I’ve been hurt, disappointed, and angry. (And rightfully so! Trust me, there will be some that will read this, know exactly what I am talking about, and will attest to everything I am saying.) And through it all, I’ve held my head high and continued to go about business as usual. But it wasn’t until this very moment, that I began to write this, that I am honestly becoming accepting of God’s “NO!” His “no” is saving me from something. Do I understand what it is? NOT ONE CLUE! But am I certain that I will appreciate it in the end? ABSOLUTELY! What is it that you are longing for that you just can’t seem to reach? Take a step back and see if God is simply saying “NO!” It may just be the answer you need.