The late great Michael Jackson penned the words...”I’m gonna make a change, for once in my life. It’s gonna feel real good. I’m gonna make a difference, gonna make it right!” It’s just something about that song that is so touching and so real. It almost brings me to tears. And even though MJ wrote it from a philanthropist point of view, it hits me personally.
As most of my readers know, my eye sight was horrible! It got to the point I was declared legally blind in one eye, I could no longer drive, and if the font wasn’t as big as my hand on reading material, it was no need in me even trying! It was so depressing. I had to depend on other people for so much. There were many days my smile barely hid tears. On top of that, when I had surgery, bills began to pile up even higher than what they were, and stress levels were even higher. But I kept praying and I kept going. I began to ask God to show me ways to make my life better. Show me how to handle situations that seemed unbearable. God did just that. He showed me. He showed me...ME!
As hard as it may be to accept, sometimes, we are our own enemy. Self sabotage is the worse type their is. I’m complaining every day about bills not being able to be paid, yet I work a job that allows me to pick up unlimited hours. And as tired as working many hours make me, if done correctly, it eventually pays the bills. Here I am complaining about being overweight and out of shape yet I live right across the street from a beautiful lake and track that I can walk and run around. Here I am complaining about where I live yet I drive pass homeless people sleeping on cement sidewalks every morning. I needed to take a good look in the mirror and realize a lot of my problems started with me. Whew! Was that a hard pill to swallow? Hell yes it was! But eventually, I put my big girl panties on, accepted the responsibility of fixing my own problems (starting with the biggest one - me) and got things done!
I started working more, well, as much I as could. I went to my doctor and got on a weight loss plan, which included exercising more and trying to eat a little healthier. I began keeping a prayer journal and talking to God more. I also started listening to God more. Major 🔑! I began to accept there are people that I simply have to steer clear from because they just can’t go where God is taking me. I had to learn there is a difference in being tired and being fatigued. Not waiting until my body forces me to rest was one of the most valuable lessons I’ve learned.
A lot of times, we don’t like looking in the mirror because we are too afraid that our own toxic traits will reveal themselves. It’s hard accepting we cause our own issues and can be toxic to others. But trust me! Self reflection is a must! It can be the beginning to healing, forgiveness, prosperity, and most importantly, peace! Learning things about your own self can put you in a place to be present and available for more opportunities, better friendships and relationships, and an improved mental state altogether.
If you are noticing you aren’t feeling yourself, you’re not quite where you want to be in life, things just seem so lackadaisical, repeat after me:
I’m going to make a change, for once in my life. It’s gonna feel real good, I’m gonna make a difference. Gonna make it right! Oh, and remember, to beYOUtiful!